Everyone thinks I'm so pure, but I'm disgusting...and the advice everyone gives me sucks?

Dear, there is absolutely nothing wrong with your thoughts and actions. You have been brought up in a "Christian" home that has taught you guilt, shame and sin. Once you find your own way and not what others have crammed down your throat to believe is true, you will find freedom. There is absolutely nothing wrong with masturbating as much as you want, nothing. There is nothing wrong with being curious about , especially if you are still a virgin, nothing. If you are 20 and your friends are already married and pregnant, you are much better off then they are. You are too young to be married and pregnant. You don't even know who you are yet. That will take a few more years to learn and even after that, you will learn more and more each year. Most marriages that occur in the early 20's end in divorce. So don't worry about that and those that are telling you to get married so you can have all the you want? Don't listen to them. Slow down, take a deep breath and realize that all your thoughts are completely NORMAL. It is so sad when I hear young males and females speak about their "morals" as if normal thinking is abnormal. Find a different spiritual path. Start reading some books other than Christian books so you can find something that works for you. Just because you grew up that way doesn't mean it is the correct path for you. Enjoy your body, forget what others say about it being "wrong". It isn't.